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This year has been tough.
Or actually the worst.
It has felt like someone has stabbed my heart with a knife.
Always going deeper and deeper.
And my heart…
it has felt like it has been exposed to a million little pieces.
it has felt like it has been exposed to a million little pieces.
(And they say “follow your hear” but if your heart is
in a milllion pieces which piece do you follow?)
I almost lost a loved one
to a horrible disease.
And I lost my spouse in a separation after seven beautiful years together.
And it felt like an end.
I just wanted to drown to those broken dreams and promises we made together.
Promises about staying together forever.
To drown with those feelings.
Slowly.
Slowly.
And still
-or actually that’s why-
I love, believing in happy endings.
“It was a privilege to love you
and it was a privilege to let you go.
Both helped shape me
into the person I have become.”
Beau Taplin
and it was a privilege to let you go.
Both helped shape me
into the person I have become.”
Beau Taplin
Tämä vuosi on ollut raskas.
Itseasiassa, jos totta puhutaan, niin elämäni raskain vuosi.
Itseasiassa, jos totta puhutaan, niin elämäni raskain vuosi.
On tuntunut siltä, että kipu on seivästänyt sydämen.
Sydämen, joka räjähti miljooniksi palasiksi.
Sirpaleiksi.
Läheisen vakava sairastuminen
ja kuoleman läheisyys.
Avoero seitsemän kauniin vuoden jälkeen.
Olisin halunnut vain hukuttautua.
Hukuttautua niihin särkyneisiin unelmiin ja lupauksiin.
Niihin, joita yhdessä vannottiin toisillemme.
Lupauksista loppuelämästä.
Olisin halunnut vain vajota.
Hitaasti.
Ja silti
-tai oikeastaan juuri siksi-
minä rakastan, uskoen onnellisiin loppuihin.
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